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Post by Lily on Aug 6, 2021 19:25:56 GMT
Put the flags out everyone! Today it finally happened. For the very first time I had the "I feel like a woman trapped in a man's body" experience. As you know, that feeling sucks hard.
All that gender dysphoria I used to worry about not experiencing, well all that's happening now. While not at the "I hate my penis" stage yet, I have noticed myself sometimes wishing something else was there instead. I don't like my hairy arms anymore, though I do like how slender they are. Though it wouldn't match the rest of my body, I'd rather have a woman's voice. I really don't like seeing my birthname or being referred to as Mr either.
On the plus side I am grateful for my long hair, my boobs, my hands and the way my figure goes in and out at the side. I also like that here at least I am called Sandi.
To leave this on that positive note, do you have any parts of your body that you appreciate having as a trans girl?
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Post by Maria on Aug 6, 2021 20:25:22 GMT
I'm sorry that you're now experiencing all these things. As a young in cheek silver lining though - I'm sure they must help with any lingering doubts that you had My hair would have to be my favourite thing. Not just the length, but also there are little bits of almost red in amongst the brown, which is really pretty Boobs too, although I wish they were a little bigger, more rounded and also a bit more central (AMAB boobs sit slightly further out to the side than cis women's boobs... sad).
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Post by Kelli Ann on Aug 6, 2021 20:51:56 GMT
Sandi when it hits it hits hard. Just like yourself my arms are rather skinny but I like that. I don’t know if you have ever shaved your whole body but it definitely adds to the trans experience, especially your legs. My beautiful wife will not let me shave my body anymore and I get really depressed. I hate my body hair. I am not bragging but when my legs are shaved they are very feminine looking and I think my wife was jealous because she always said that my legs looked way better than hers when I was allowed to shave them.
I have a feminine voice over the phone and people that do not know me are constantly calling me ma’am. I also am always clocked as a woman at any fast food drive -thru but I take it as a compliment and am not offended at all. You should see the workers when I finally make it to the window to get my food and see that I am a dude. Sometimes they apologize but I never get upset because it makes my day that they thought I was a woman.
From the way I perceive you you are a very beautiful lady inside and out and I truly understand the dysphoria. But it gets very addictive and you will want to feel like that all of the time.
Huggs,
Kelli Ann
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Post by Lily on Aug 7, 2021 5:01:22 GMT
I'm sorry that you're now experiencing all these things. As a young in cheek silver lining though - I'm sure they must help with any lingering doubts that you had My hair would have to be my favourite thing. Not just the length, but also there are little bits of almost red in amongst the brown, which is really pretty Boobs too, although I wish they were a little bigger, more rounded and also a bit more central (AMAB boobs sit slightly further out to the side than cis women's boobs... sad). Most of the time these feelings don't hit so hard, a lot of this is because it's so new. As for my lingering doubts, I almost feel like laughing at those now, in the face of all this overwhelming evidence. How long is your hair? Mine goes just passed my shoulders. I used to have red amongst the brown too, and thought the same. Now all the red is white, but I think it still looks nice though. Yes our boobs do go out to the side. However I don't think it would take much work for me to get some decent cleavage. I just don't know which bra could do that for me though, or which size.
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Post by Lily on Aug 7, 2021 5:28:27 GMT
Sandi when it hits it hits hard. Just like yourself my arms are rather skinny but I like that. I don’t know if you have ever shaved your whole body but it definitely adds to the trans experience, especially your legs. My beautiful wife will not let me shave my body anymore and I get really depressed. I hate my body hair. I am not bragging but when my legs are shaved they are very feminine looking and I think my wife was jealous because she always said that my legs looked way better than hers when I was allowed to shave them. I have a feminine voice over the phone and people that do not know me are constantly calling me ma’am. I also am always clocked as a woman at any fast food drive -thru but I take it as a compliment and am not offended at all. You should see the workers when I finally make it to the window to get my food and see that I am a dude. Sometimes they apologize but I never get upset because it makes my day that they thought I was a woman. From the way I perceive you you are a very beautiful lady inside and out and I truly understand the dysphoria. But it gets very addictive and you will want to feel like that all of the time. Huggs, Kelli Ann I should defintely try shaving everywhere at some point. It seems such a massive chore, but from what I've read it definitely seems worth it. Fortunately I'm not as hairy as some, so it isn't quite as noticable as for others. For example I can look at my hairy legs and feel that there not that much hairier than a cis woman. My first heavy hit of gender euphoria came from my legs, my thighs in particular. I don't know if you've read my post from when I first properly dressed up in June. I was wearing black stockings and seeing the gap between the stockings and my dress sent me somewhere I'd never been before. It was that sensation that made me realise just how much more to this there was. That sounds really nice to be taken for a woman based on your voice. I'm pleased it makes you so happy. I get quite pleased when Faceapp thinks I'm female before I start to add any filters. Thank you for the compliment. It is somewhat surprising to me, but I do feel like a beautifutl woman inside. That was how I seeing myself when I felt trapped yesterday. I see all those Faceapp photos of me, and very much see my actual face in them. I feel lucky to still look so young for my age, and that I've inheritied my mother's good looks and figure. It is saddening though thinking about how that image doesn't match the reality. Despite all that, when I'm dressed up I almost always see the woman I am in the mirror or camera. Sometimes I don't even need the clothes either.
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Post by Jessica on Aug 7, 2021 16:53:45 GMT
Sandi welcome to the club! It sucks but it also is another confirmation of your transness.
As for your second question I like to feel my butt in running tights lol.
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Post by Lily on Aug 8, 2021 5:05:27 GMT
I'm sure many others would like to do the same Consensually of course.
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Post by Jessica on Aug 8, 2021 15:53:43 GMT
I'd like to think so hahahahaha.
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