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Post by Lily on Oct 30, 2021 14:10:46 GMT
Really unsure where to put this. Thought I'd put out on the forum rather than a DM as guests may have similar experiences.
I went out to collect my Amazon delivery today. The first time I've been out of the house in a few weeks. Just after I left, something new happened. I got slightly upset and I had to stop myself from crying. I'm not exactly sure why, as I can't quite recall the particular thoughts that caused it. I think it was because I felt like I was having to wear a disguise. That I wanted to leave the house looking like how I feel inside. That people would of course take me for a man, indeed later a shop assistant called me "Sir".
I think that this happened because I have been living in a bit of a bubble at home. I have been the proper clothes much more than before. I almost always stuff my top when I do so too. In the last few days I've done that while setting off to sleep as well. I wear my hair long and loose, and not tied back. Where others have reported feeling like a boy, I have been very much feeling like a girl almost 24/7 for quite some time.
The feeling wasn't that overwhelming, but was noticably there and lasted for about 10-15 minutes. It didn't trigger anything worse. Once home I started to feel much better. I happily tried on the clothes not long after my return. It is just one of those things I will have to adjust to and live with.
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Post by Jessica on Nov 2, 2021 13:42:35 GMT
Sandi I do think you might need to really transition just for your own mental wellbeing. I am glad you are taking those steps!
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