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Post by Maria on Jun 10, 2021 19:10:39 GMT
Hi, I'm Maria. My earliest gender-based memory is from when I was around 6, lying in bed wishing that when I woke up I would have switched to being a girl but that no one else would know that I hadn't always been so. From that point on I repressed it, although when I now read through other people talking about their hidden signs, I relate to normally about 90% of them, so it was definitely still there. Then 5 years ago I had that "a-ha" moment when so many things clicked into place. I can't see transition being on the cards for me mostly for family reasons. I'm very close to my family, but they are not exactly in a modern headspace with LGBT+ matters. Also I'm a single parent to a child with additional needs. And while I know that they would almost certainly be accepting and deal with it, it's like... I know they COULD, but SHOULD they have to deal with it? And what if they then got bullied because of it, or anything like that? So yeah, that's a bit about me. Looking forwards to hopefully getting to know some others in similar circumstances on here
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Post by Jessica on Jun 11, 2021 1:07:35 GMT
Welcome Maria! So glad you are here.
I completely understand where you are coming from and related to your story. I pulled the same stunt as a kid, going to bed wishing that when I would wake up I would be a girl. I suspect several of us have. And I understood your statement about relating to about 90% of the signs other people said they had.....that is totally me as well. I have done that several times.
I feel for your situation, and hopefully you'll be able to let off a little steam here. We are still a very small community. We have about 10 members but only a handful ever post. I am still working on growing it, and am not giving up any time soon. Welcome!
I love your name by the way. Very pretty.
-Jessica
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Hi there!
Jun 11, 2021 1:19:36 GMT
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Post by francie on Jun 11, 2021 1:19:36 GMT
Hi Maria and loved reading your post. Transitioning is not on the cards for me either but we can dream and together. As a youngster I was confused from an early age I think the confusion simply changed with age. From dolls to dresses!! Huggs, franciešŗšŗ
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Post by Lily on Jun 21, 2021 19:57:10 GMT
Maria,
I hope you don't mind me asking, but how do you envision the idealised you? Assuming you do. It's been good to hear how Jessica and Chloe envision themselves.
Sorry if this too personal a question to ask.
Woori-Mei
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Jun 21, 2021 22:38:31 GMT
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Post by Maria on Jun 21, 2021 22:38:31 GMT
I don't mind at all š I'm trying to think how best to answer, as I don't have like a fixed "ideal" in my mind. Like, in a hypothetical world where I could transition, I wouldn't do so with an aim to look like person A or person B. I would just want to become the person that I am meant to be were it not for nature's unfortunate hormonal whoopsie. That being said, I can describe how I think I would be, assuming I didn't have a massive personality change at the same time! I would describe myself as low-maintenance. Like... the idea that my nails and makeup would always be done and always be perfect is laughable. But then to do them for special occasions or as a pampering treat would be lovely. I think I would feel more comfortable being referred to as "cute", than "hot" or "stunning", or anything like that. And along that line, while obviously some feminine shaping of the curves is something I would dearly love, I couldn't imagine having a massive chest or very wide hips or anything. Just enough that you could tell I was a female from the silhouette would do me fine. And more than likely carrying a bit of extra weight. I like food too much, and if a male metabolism with greater muscle mass can't quite keep on top of it, then well... I think it would be a challenge to not turn into a cute, slightly curvy whale šš
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Post by Lily on Jun 22, 2021 0:13:00 GMT
Thanks for answering Maria/ Your description doesn't sound too far off from what I think I might look like should I ever think that "Yes, that's what I want". We'd be two whales together I think. I'm shy, so I don't really to be glamourous with all eyes on me. Honestly I think I'd just be a taller broader version of my sister, we're quite similiar in personality and looks, though by no means identical. I have an ideal. if my fairy godmother ever turned up. If you see her, tell her to get move on BTW. The ideal would be short, cute, a bit chubby, wearing glasses, obviously 100% female, and at least 20 years younger. It's a fantasy, so why not cut the age down too The fantasy version is more-or-less my personality transferred into female form. I picked my avatar because that's how I'd think I'd look like, rather than wanting to look like her. I've been kind of picturing us altogether at some girls' night-in, that kind of thing. It's nice to picture us together as how we'd like to be. x Woori-Mei
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Jun 22, 2021 9:05:45 GMT
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Post by Maria on Jun 22, 2021 9:05:45 GMT
I finally have an avatar š Kind of sort of what I think I would look like, but not really. It was the closest I could come lol. I guess the other possibility would be that if I WERE to live as a woman, then being able to wear the clothes I wanted would be the motivation I need to be more strict about what and how much I eat, so that they would fit me better, or in a more flattering way, because I would actually care how I looked lol. Ohh a girls' night out would be amazing š® There's an app or something that I can't remember the name of now that's like a 3D chat room that had dance rooms and things. I wonder if at some point it would be possible to do like a virtual one on something like that maybe.
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Post by Lily on Jun 22, 2021 10:32:43 GMT
I like the avatar. You're the first slim girl of the group. There's me the chubby one, curvy Chloe, glamourous Emory and athletic Jessica.
I totally get you with taking better care of appearance. I'm already starting to think that way as how I am now, not in diet so much, but more like better grooming and hair care. I really put next no effort in on that, but I now I figure that Woori-Mei deserves a bit better.
Girls' night-out??? <PANICS> Do I have to really go out? Can we start at a girl's night-in first, a pajama party or something?
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Jun 22, 2021 11:02:41 GMT
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Post by Maria on Jun 22, 2021 11:02:41 GMT
Believe me, as a committed introvert, no one is more surprised to hear me suggest "night out" than me š It's almost like I'm not actually an introvert at all, but instead someone who just doesn't want to have to put on an act and pretend to be someone else around the whole of the rest of the world the whole time... strange that! š
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Post by chloƩ on Jun 23, 2021 15:05:47 GMT
Hi Maria, I like your avatar, I think I will start a diet. Itās good to have a name and a body. You are really cute. When I created mine, I created also my story as Chloe. Chloe is me now with the life I dream and I should have. Iām 46 with 3 children, thatās why my body is curvy, C.U.R.V.Y as Woorie Says. Breastfeeding had a big impact on my bosom. In my family (the actual one) the women are quite endowed, and Iām part of the club as you can see on my photo. I love making photos, it gives my life reality and I dream with this in my mind. And the face is really mine after feminisation, faceapp improved a lot and is very good now. At the beginning it was less reliable. You are speaking of girlās night. Iām a little frighten but very attracted. The problem which frighten me also is the language, everybody had english as native language, mine is french and I donāt know if I will be able to interact easily.
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Jun 23, 2021 16:52:28 GMT
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Post by Maria on Jun 23, 2021 16:52:28 GMT
Hi Chloe, thank you for the sweet compliments š Maybe I should go on a diet as well, as I'm nowhere near that skinny in real life haha. That picture was just the closest I could find to what I was looking for! I've started taking some pictures recently. I found how to hide a photo album on my phone, so I can hide them and not worry about anyone accidentally coming across them! I'd never been too keen on being photographed before, so it's a bit of a change for me! Your English is really good though š I think the idea of a girls' night is perhaps more of a wishful idea than a realistic one though. Between time zones and everything else, I think it would be very difficult to set up. But it would be nice though!
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Post by Lily on Jun 23, 2021 17:54:48 GMT
The girls' night idea started as a nice happy image of us all together as how we'd really wish to look like. There's quite a few images of Mei of her just nicely hanging with her gal pals. I really like that idea. One of the reasons that I would transition is to be accepted by other women as a woman, and be part of their friendship groups.
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Post by Jessica on Jun 24, 2021 2:49:12 GMT
I finally have an avatar š Kind of sort of what I think I would look like, but not really. It was the closest I could come lol. I guess the other possibility would be that if I WERE to live as a woman, then being able to wear the clothes I wanted would be the motivation I need to be more strict about what and how much I eat, so that they would fit me better, or in a more flattering way, because I would actually care how I looked lol. Ohh a girls' night out would be amazing š® There's an app or something that I can't remember the name of now that's like a 3D chat room that had dance rooms and things. I wonder if at some point it would be possible to do like a virtual one on something like that maybe. Love the avatar. Very cute.
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Jun 24, 2021 8:36:17 GMT
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Post by chloƩ on Jun 24, 2021 8:36:17 GMT
Hi girls, With photoshop mix and fix a photo of us can be made easily Love ChloƩ
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Post by Maria on Jun 24, 2021 9:26:52 GMT
That would be a lovely thing to have for us all
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