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Post by Maria on Apr 8, 2022 0:30:35 GMT
Well I just did something terrifying but amazing. Technically speaking, I just went out in public wearing gender appropriate clothes and without hiding that fact š
I was tidying up before heading to bed for the night and realised that it is our recycling collection tomorrow, and I hadn't put the bag out yet. I thought "Oh I'd better go up and change into a t-shirt and jeans to go do it". But then I stopped and thought more. It was 12:30am, so most people would be asleep, and even those that weren't were highly unlikely to be out walking at that time.
I checked through the little viewing hole in the door, and the street was deserted. And so I slipped on my crocs, and put the bag out whilst wearing a dress and leggings (plus underwear, obviously lol). Now the spot where I put my bag is only two steps away from my front door, so it was hardly a lengthy journey. But all the same, it was still outside my house, in a public place.
Once the bag was down and I was back at my door, I did stop for an extra moment just to savour the feeling of the experience. Even though it was only a few seconds, it felt amazing to actually be outside of these walls as my true self. To look up at the sky, and breathe fresh air, without feeling like I had to put on an act and pretend to be someone else just in case someone happened to come along.
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Post by Lily on Apr 8, 2022 6:53:50 GMT
That's very brave of you to do that Maria. Sounds like it was a rewarding experience for you too.
As I've recounted on here I've doing something similar, but only in going downstairs, not stepping outside. It does feel liberating going outside the boundaries that we normally set ourselves. Like you did I do a risk assessment as to how safe it is to do. I wouldn't dream of doing it if there was any real risk of being seen.
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Post by Jessica on Apr 8, 2022 14:31:28 GMT
Thrilling! I would never have the guts! Proud of you!
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Post by Maria on Apr 14, 2022 18:16:45 GMT
Thank you Tonight is the night for the normal black rubbish bag to go out, and I had at one point thought about maybe trying to do the same with that one. I don't think I will though That bin is round the front of the house, so it's further from the door and also much more exposed to the road. If I was to do it, I think it would have to be at like 2am or something. And with how I'm feeling physically right now, I don't think I'll still be up at 2am. Also, where I'm feeling rotten, I don't think I have the mental capacity for doing something brave lol.
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Post by chloƩ on Apr 15, 2022 12:44:41 GMT
Iām sure of one thing, I wouldānt be able to do the same. Very courageous.
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