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Post by Lily on Jun 28, 2021 7:42:28 GMT
So there I was laying on my bed, looking at the internet, wearing my pretty summer dress. Then my spider senses started tingling, I heard my nephew approaching my room, then heard his hand on the door. "Don't come in! Give me five minutes." I shouted commandingly (I hoped) Fortunately he didn't enter. I quickly put on my guy clothes and answered him at the door, and said honestly that I needed to put some trousers on. Phew! Thank goodness, my world is saved. I put the message out in the house, that I wasn't to be disturbed because I was having a hard time of it at the moment. If only they knew. Therefore I thought I was safe to dress up, but obviously his need to speak to me was far greater than my personal anguish Anyone else with similar close calls? xox, Woori-Mei
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 8:05:40 GMT
Oh yes I met this type of situation. One day I wore girls clothed when I was teenager and my mother came home earlier. I was so frighten, she didn’t find me but it was so close. my worst fear is when I’m home wearing a skirt and my heels and if my wife arrived earlier. I can’t command her not to come in my room, it is hers too. it’s always the risk when we live with others. I’m always frighten but I love some much being a girl that I continue. Chloé
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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 14:10:26 GMT
When I was young, like six or seven, I was actually caught in my sisters clothes. I think it was a swimsuit. At the time it was passed off as young boy curiosity but I learned from that day to be very, very careful and I always was so I have never been caught. It is a small miracle with all the stuff I have been up to.
It is to the point that I actually rent a small storage closet to store all my girly stuff in and only bust it out when the house is free. I also have a specific laptop that I use only for my girly stuff that is password protected with a unique password and I keep at the bottom of my nightstand. I don't do anything girly on my regular laptop or phone.
The lengths I go to to keep this secret are actually probably clinically insane to be honest.
Sometimes I wonder what might have happened if I had been genuinely caught at a young age. If my parents would have coaxed something out of me and my life would have gone differently.
Great post/question.
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Post by Lily on Nov 4, 2021 20:38:02 GMT
So there I was putting the finishing touches on my coming out email, just thinking of what to put as the title. However nature called, and I needed to pee. I changed my skirt to tracky bottoms and went downstairs. I noticed there were no other lights on in the house and so my sister must be asleep. "I needn't have bothered changing" I thought to myself. A few seconds later I noticed that well, I hadn't quite changed after all. The outside was fine, my hoodie covering everything up top. However not so much the inside, I had forgotten to unstuff my swimsuit, and my boobs were clearly much larger than normal. I quickly went to the bathroom to correct this error. I was very thankful that no-one had been around to see this, and that I didn't have to come out twice today!
Funnily enough yesterday my counsellor asked what I thought my sister's reaction would be if she saw me in my gender appropriate clothes. I said that I honestly wouldn't know, but this evening I could've found out!
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Post by Maria on Nov 5, 2021 10:22:48 GMT
Your story scared me 😂 Reminds of the other day, when I was going through the routine of sweeping the house top to bottom several times to make sure anything that might be a giveaway was hidden away before my daughter came home from school. And how incredibly conscious I have to be while doing it.
In the early days, when this was all new, I knew exactly what was where because it was all exciting and stuck in my mind. Now though, because it all just feels normal, those things don't stick out to me anymore. So I can easily "see" them without noticing them. So I have to consciously go through a checklist in my mind of everything, just to make absolutely sure.
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Post by Lily on Nov 5, 2021 13:41:50 GMT
It's different for me as I know this secret won't be permanent. I'm "only" controlling the timing of when they find out. I don't obsess about it all, I think it would add too much stress for me if I started worrying about that too. Anytime I'm out or even just downstairs, either of them could come into my room and easily find all my clothes. Fortunately I am very confident that they wouldn't come into my room and start poking around. However my sister did see that doll of mine. She hasn't brought it up since, and I've no idea what she thinks about it. My worry would be if I suddenly had to go into hospital. That happened one time after a minor accident. I broke my wrist playing football, went to A&E and was operated on that day. My sister brought some clothes from me from home, unfortunately some that there due for the laundry If that happened now well, what would she bring in for me to wear in bed? My negligee or my babydoll nightie?
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Post by Jessica on Nov 5, 2021 14:24:01 GMT
I am so, so, so, so, so, so careful. But I still worry about my wife finding out somehow one day.
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Post by Lily on Nov 6, 2021 22:46:57 GMT
Um well, guess who almost did it again. I left my room and got to the top of the stairs before I realised. Thank goodness I did too, as there were two downstairs who would've seen. However someone could've been coming up the stairs or coming out their room.
I really need to start checking myself before I open the door so that it becomes a habit. I've been joking about this a bit on here, but I do not want to deal with consequences of them finding out right now, it would be just awful and terrible. I simply do not know how I would cope.
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Post by Jessica on Nov 7, 2021 15:02:19 GMT
Losing your sense of urgency. I know this isn't my place but almost wonder if you subconsciously want to be caught? Probably not but it makes you wonder.
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Post by Lily on Nov 7, 2021 17:21:45 GMT
I think it really is that is that I don't really feel the difference, and forget that I've stuffed. They are just clothes against my body as is everything else I'm wearing. Also that it is just absent-mindedness, that by just changing from skirt to trousers I think that I'm good to go.
I don't think I subconciously want to be caught. As I said it would be far more difficult for me than if I chose the right time. However if I was to try to come out now I don't think I would be even able to come out with the words. I would be a sobbing mess, a complete wreck, unable to say anything. Add to that the feeling that "Well they're going to find out at some point anyway"
You say things like "it's not my place" or "what I do I know" a lot. There's really no need, you're my friend and are allowed to say those things. Don't feel like you have to hedge what you're saying by using those types of phrases. I get why you do it though, I think I'd do the same with you in similar circumstances.
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Post by Jessica on Nov 8, 2021 15:53:59 GMT
Somewhat off topic, but it is funny/silly to see you sign the original post as WM. Oh how far we've come!
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Post by Lily on Nov 8, 2021 17:05:15 GMT
Well quite. I was even just Woori before that. I daren't look at those old posts, I would just cringe too much.
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