Post by Lily on Jun 29, 2021 13:43:16 GMT
There must be a better title for this thread but there you go.
For many years now we've had our groceries delivered on a weekly basis from a major supermarket chain. The last delivery was last Tuesday lunchtime. Well as you know later that day something very significant happened to me, a life-changing event that I've described elsewhere.
Since then I have been around the house, doing what I normally do but with a lot more tears, joy and typing. I been mostly keeping to myself, but still speaking to family every now and again. In dealing with family I've been conscious of my discovery, but perhaps more focused on how I'm keeping this and the associated turmoil from them, rather than who I now knew I was. I haven't noticed any new awkwardness in me when speaking with them either.
So today was the first day I've had any contact with anyone else, since I knew who I was inside. I was not the man that everyone sees, but me, this woman
How much of me is a woman I am still unsure of, and I think perhaps doesn't need to be quantified. All I need to know right now is that a very large proportion of me is female, possibly 100%, and that it is far much more than I even remotely considered before.
Anyway as I interacted with the delivery driver, I knew he would just be assuming that I am a man, and in that moment I was quite conscious of the fact that I am not. I wasn't behaving any different than before, except perhaps with more confidence, so it wasn't that I was putting on an act. It was simply that I knew i wasn't the gender he'd assume me to be.
There is no great insight from me on this. I think I just wanted to record it, that this was the first time I knew myself to be a male-presenting woman.
Does anyone have any experiences of their first time this happened for them?
For many years now we've had our groceries delivered on a weekly basis from a major supermarket chain. The last delivery was last Tuesday lunchtime. Well as you know later that day something very significant happened to me, a life-changing event that I've described elsewhere.
Since then I have been around the house, doing what I normally do but with a lot more tears, joy and typing. I been mostly keeping to myself, but still speaking to family every now and again. In dealing with family I've been conscious of my discovery, but perhaps more focused on how I'm keeping this and the associated turmoil from them, rather than who I now knew I was. I haven't noticed any new awkwardness in me when speaking with them either.
So today was the first day I've had any contact with anyone else, since I knew who I was inside. I was not the man that everyone sees, but me, this woman
How much of me is a woman I am still unsure of, and I think perhaps doesn't need to be quantified. All I need to know right now is that a very large proportion of me is female, possibly 100%, and that it is far much more than I even remotely considered before.
Anyway as I interacted with the delivery driver, I knew he would just be assuming that I am a man, and in that moment I was quite conscious of the fact that I am not. I wasn't behaving any different than before, except perhaps with more confidence, so it wasn't that I was putting on an act. It was simply that I knew i wasn't the gender he'd assume me to be.
There is no great insight from me on this. I think I just wanted to record it, that this was the first time I knew myself to be a male-presenting woman.
Does anyone have any experiences of their first time this happened for them?