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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 7:02:36 GMT
I haven't been able to dress up for a long time, but I had a few beers tonight (wishing I coulda done white wine for the mood.....but my wife woulda been very wtf about that) while watching basketball. After the kids went to bed (and my wife was still gone with her girlfriend for a little while longer) I was able to spend a little time wearing a pair of panties which I haven't done in a long time. While I loved the feel of the nylon pink bikini panties and it really put me at ease, I couldn't help but notice the bulge my penis caused and how much I hated that. Not only did it look wrong in that pretty pair of panties, but it ruined the fit and feel as well. I will preface this by saying I am a little buzzed from the beers haha. That said I really do not care for my penis. There are times I appreciate it. But perhaps more than anything else I wonder what it is like to have a vagina. It is one of the reasons I am drawn to Emory's captions so much.....he regularly takes his characters all the way. I long to know what it is like to have a vagina and be on the receiving end of sex. Or to masturbate that way. I don't know what it is, but I know I will never experience that and I desperately want to. The idea of just yielding to someone else. Letting them enter your body with a part of theirs. Opening up your body and letting them in. I just do not know if there is anything more female than that. You have to allow your body to be invaded, and you have to be extraordinarily vulnerable and trusting to allow someone to do that. I imagine it is a powerful experience. For men you have this big bulge and a manly organ you are proud of. It is a sign of your masculinity. For women, it is just a void. A place that others use for their pleasure. And you have the key. I dunno, maybe this should be in the sexuality section. But it has been on my mind. There are a lot of parts of the female experience you can simulate. You can dress up, wear makeup, pose as a woman in video games or online, learn about female culture. Heck....you can even partially simulate breasts with shapewear tricks and falsies. But there is no way to simulate that. Just imagine if your crotch (and the rest of you) looked like this. Sigh......a girl can dream.....
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Post by Lily on Jun 28, 2021 7:16:23 GMT
This was all just an excuse to post a picture of a smoking hot blonde wasn't it Jess? Before all this I thought I just love my penis too much, that no matter what there is no way I'd want to lose it, 100% definite. I love the pleasure of the orgasmic experience too much. Then I thought why? If I'm just worried about that, then well I have heard that cis women have those too, and can get more than the one and done that men get. Of course I'd want to have the rest of me to be all woman too, but you get the point.
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 7:34:04 GMT
Hi Jess, you make me dreaming even if I’m not so skinny. I wonder for so many years how it feels for my wife to have a vagina. She will tell you that’s it is only problems. What is the position of your wife? I’m happy you open the discussion, I didn’t want to speak about my penis and my desire to have a complete female sex instead without your permission as administrator. when I wear a skirt or panties I don’t like what I see, and when I see my wife genitalia, I’ m jealous.. she absolutely doesn’t understand because she doesn’t like her vagina and what goes with (periods for example). yesterday we had a very good time with her but I couldn’t stop thinking that I want to be her and not me. I always wanted to be on the receiving team. I tried to explain her several times but it makes me only very sad, she doesn’t want to roleplay with me, but I understand because with my body’ it’s difficult to imagine me as a woman. one of my favorite part is when she plays with her dildo I go behind her, she lays on me and I have the same view as if I was the woman and I dream. A girl can dream the sex part is really something we won’t understand only with dreams. we have to be careful, because it is not really easy to manage the female genitalia which are far more complex than our. And the society doesn’t help. We must feel vulnerable and with no real power with a vagina. We can’t impose anything to the men, they are stronger and the penis can impose his own desire. As girls we have to support and help all women. I don’t know if you agree, but the pleasure is far more better as a woman if the act is well done between the couple. I’m everytime very sad of my pleasure when it comes and I compare with my wife’s. And I don’t even speak about the multiple pleasure she can have. But I don’t forget the consequences for women in comparison with the consequences for men which are Clearly = O. Men just have to quit and continue their life. beers are cool to speak about deep subjects. I come with you with this dream
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 7:48:20 GMT
i dream of feeling vulnerable and having a void between my legs.
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Post by Lily on Jun 28, 2021 9:12:42 GMT
Steady on there Chloe. Take a cold shower or something
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 9:47:30 GMT
i will take a cold Shower quickly 😉
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Post by Maria on Jun 28, 2021 10:18:41 GMT
I know exactly what you mean. On the one hand, I do love the feelings and sensations that can come from it. On the other, it has never quite felt right being there... Oh God, as I was typing this I just had a memory from childhood come back out of nowhere. Very possibly not the right board for it, but it fits the topic so... I remember when I first started having, let's call it "solo me time". And I would put my hand over the area and rub, as a lady would if she was having some alone time. And then feeling REALLY unhappy that it would always grow and get hard and that then it was no longer possible to do that, and I would have to resort to "typical male" methods if I wanted to continue. Wow, that little chestnut took its time coming back, didn't it 😂 I think the worst for me is "morning wood". Literally as soon as I wake up, it's like nature going "good morning - don't forget your body doesn't match who you are!" For a couple of the things you mentioned I do have some suggestions and/or solutions though I will post them in their more relevant sections however. That way this thread can stay as talking about how we feel about this aspect, and the other related topics can be fully explored in more detail where they are!
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Post by Lily on Jun 28, 2021 11:20:22 GMT
I find this all very interesting.
Chloe you would clearly rather have a vagina instead, perhaps you too Maria. That Jessica you are at the very least fascinated about having one, and I'm "Sure why not, so long as it comes with all the curves".
For me, and where I am on my journey, my own opinion says a lot. What cis man would really be as unattached to his penis as I am?
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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 14:12:28 GMT
I want to apologize for this girl's drunken ramblings! Not for the content.....I stand by that.....but for the stream of consciousness rambling writing style.
I would give just about anything to look like the girl in that picture. And I do mean all of her. Crotch and all. Sober Jess still doesn't care for her penis.
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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 14:14:40 GMT
This was all just an excuse to post a picture of a smoking hot blonde wasn't it Jess? Before all this I thought I just love my penis too much, that no matter what there is no way I'd want to lose it, 100% definite. I love the pleasure of the orgasmic experience too much. Then I thought why? If I'm just worried about that, then well I have heard that cis women have those too, and can get more than the one and done that men get. Of course I'd want to have the rest of me to be all woman too, but you get the point. Oh they do Woori, and they seem so much better than our little quirts. They are harder to achieve, but when done right are a whole body experience that is richer, deeper and lasts longer. I would LOVE To give it a try. I'd trade in this hot dog for a taco any day of the week.
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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 14:21:00 GMT
Hi Jess, you make me dreaming even if I’m not so skinny. I wonder for so many years how it feels for my wife to have a vagina. She will tell you that’s it is only problems. What is the position of your wife? I’m happy you open the discussion, I didn’t want to speak about my penis and my desire to have a complete female sex instead without your permission as administrator. when I wear a skirt or panties I don’t like what I see, and when I see my wife genitalia, I’ m jealous.. she absolutely doesn’t understand because she doesn’t like her vagina and what goes with (periods for example). yesterday we had a very good time with her but I couldn’t stop thinking that I want to be her and not me. I always wanted to be on the receiving team. I tried to explain her several times but it makes me only very sad, she doesn’t want to roleplay with me, but I understand because with my body’ it’s difficult to imagine me as a woman. one of my favorite part is when she plays with her dildo I go behind her, she lays on me and I have the same view as if I was the woman and I dream. A girl can dream the sex part is really something we won’t understand only with dreams. we have to be careful, because it is not really easy to manage the female genitalia which are far more complex than our. And the society doesn’t help. We must feel vulnerable and with no real power with a vagina. We can’t impose anything to the men, they are stronger and the penis can impose his own desire. As girls we have to support and help all women. I don’t know if you agree, but the pleasure is far more better as a woman if the act is well done between the couple. I’m everytime very sad of my pleasure when it comes and I compare with my wife’s. And I don’t even speak about the multiple pleasure she can have. But I don’t forget the consequences for women in comparison with the consequences for men which are Clearly = O. Men just have to quit and continue their life. beers are cool to speak about deep subjects. I come with you with this dream I have actually never asked my wife what it is like to have a vagina. I'd like to, although it would require me thinking of a way to ask that doesn't sound totally random. There are certainly a lot of problems that come with having a vagina, and not just the societal issues that come with being female. They are more prone to diseases than penises, they require more care and maintenance and cleaning, they have periods, etc. But I don't care. I want one. I figured it was silly we weren't having this convo yet, so I am glad I opened it up! We have done some fun stuff with some sex toys too. Never a dildo, but some other things that really up the experience for her. That isn't really something you can do with a penis. It just makes it go faster haha. I totally agree with everything you say here about vulnerability and everything that comes with it. I love it. My wife clearly loves it too, and I love watching her love it.
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Post by Jessica on Jun 28, 2021 14:23:36 GMT
I know exactly what you mean. On the one hand, I do love the feelings and sensations that can come from it. On the other, it has never quite felt right being there... Oh God, as I was typing this I just had a memory from childhood come back out of nowhere. Very possibly not the right board for it, but it fits the topic so... I remember when I first started having, let's call it "solo me time". And I would put my hand over the area and rub, as a lady would if she was having some alone time. And then feeling REALLY unhappy that it would always grow and get hard and that then it was no longer possible to do that, and I would have to resort to "typical male" methods if I wanted to continue. Wow, that little chestnut took its time coming back, didn't it 😂 I think the worst for me is "morning wood". Literally as soon as I wake up, it's like nature going "good morning - don't forget your body doesn't match who you are!" For a couple of the things you mentioned I do have some suggestions and/or solutions though I will post them in their more relevant sections however. That way this thread can stay as talking about how we feel about this aspect, and the other related topics can be fully explored in more detail where they are! I can totally relate to that. I actually never did "me time" correctly until I was like 17. Its true. Sorry if this is too graphic. But I just rubbed my crotch against the floor. I had no idea that wasn't what you were supposed to do until I was quite old and almost out of the house. True story! Anyone else experience this? No? Just me?
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 15:02:03 GMT
Hi Jess, you make me dreaming even if I’m not so skinny. I wonder for so many years how it feels for my wife to have a vagina. She will tell you that’s it is only problems. What is the position of your wife? I’m happy you open the discussion, I didn’t want to speak about my penis and my desire to have a complete female sex instead without your permission as administrator. when I wear a skirt or panties I don’t like what I see, and when I see my wife genitalia, I’ m jealous.. she absolutely doesn’t understand because she doesn’t like her vagina and what goes with (periods for example). yesterday we had a very good time with her but I couldn’t stop thinking that I want to be her and not me. I always wanted to be on the receiving team. I tried to explain her several times but it makes me only very sad, she doesn’t want to roleplay with me, but I understand because with my body’ it’s difficult to imagine me as a woman. one of my favorite part is when she plays with her dildo I go behind her, she lays on me and I have the same view as if I was the woman and I dream. A girl can dream the sex part is really something we won’t understand only with dreams. we have to be careful, because it is not really easy to manage the female genitalia which are far more complex than our. And the society doesn’t help. We must feel vulnerable and with no real power with a vagina. We can’t impose anything to the men, they are stronger and the penis can impose his own desire. As girls we have to support and help all women. I don’t know if you agree, but the pleasure is far more better as a woman if the act is well done between the couple. I’m everytime very sad of my pleasure when it comes and I compare with my wife’s. And I don’t even speak about the multiple pleasure she can have. But I don’t forget the consequences for women in comparison with the consequences for men which are Clearly = O. Men just have to quit and continue their life. beers are cool to speak about deep subjects. I come with you with this dream I have actually never asked my wife what it is like to have a vagina. I'd like to, although it would require me thinking of a way to ask that doesn't sound totally random. There are certainly a lot of problems that come with having a vagina, and not just the societal issues that come with being female. They are more prone to diseases than penises, they require more care and maintenance and cleaning, they have periods, etc. But I don't care. I want one. I figured it was silly we weren't having this convo yet, so I am glad I opened it up! We have done some fun stuff with some sex toys too. Never a dildo, but some other things that really up the experience for her. That isn't really something you can do with a penis. It just makes it go faster haha. I totally agree with everything you say here about vulnerability and everything that comes with it. I love it. My wife clearly loves it too, and I love watching her love it. So do I, I want my own vagina, clitoris, womb and ovaries. Even if the « maintenance » and diseases are far more difficult but it’s the price for being who we should be, I would accept it without restriction.
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Post by Maria on Jun 28, 2021 16:01:08 GMT
Hi Jess, you make me dreaming even if I’m not so skinny. I wonder for so many years how it feels for my wife to have a vagina. She will tell you that’s it is only problems. What is the position of your wife? I’m happy you open the discussion, I didn’t want to speak about my penis and my desire to have a complete female sex instead without your permission as administrator. when I wear a skirt or panties I don’t like what I see, and when I see my wife genitalia, I’ m jealous.. she absolutely doesn’t understand because she doesn’t like her vagina and what goes with (periods for example). yesterday we had a very good time with her but I couldn’t stop thinking that I want to be her and not me. I always wanted to be on the receiving team. I tried to explain her several times but it makes me only very sad, she doesn’t want to roleplay with me, but I understand because with my body’ it’s difficult to imagine me as a woman. one of my favorite part is when she plays with her dildo I go behind her, she lays on me and I have the same view as if I was the woman and I dream. A girl can dream the sex part is really something we won’t understand only with dreams. we have to be careful, because it is not really easy to manage the female genitalia which are far more complex than our. And the society doesn’t help. We must feel vulnerable and with no real power with a vagina. We can’t impose anything to the men, they are stronger and the penis can impose his own desire. As girls we have to support and help all women. I don’t know if you agree, but the pleasure is far more better as a woman if the act is well done between the couple. I’m everytime very sad of my pleasure when it comes and I compare with my wife’s. And I don’t even speak about the multiple pleasure she can have. But I don’t forget the consequences for women in comparison with the consequences for men which are Clearly = O. Men just have to quit and continue their life. beers are cool to speak about deep subjects. I come with you with this dream I have actually never asked my wife what it is like to have a vagina. I'd like to, although it would require me thinking of a way to ask that doesn't sound totally random. There are certainly a lot of problems that come with having a vagina, and not just the societal issues that come with being female. They are more prone to diseases than penises, they require more care and maintenance and cleaning, they have periods, etc. But I don't care. I want one. I figured it was silly we weren't having this convo yet, so I am glad I opened it up! We have done some fun stuff with some sex toys too. Never a dildo, but some other things that really up the experience for her. That isn't really something you can do with a penis. It just makes it go faster haha. I totally agree with everything you say here about vulnerability and everything that comes with it. I love it. My wife clearly loves it too, and I love watching her love it. I did ask my ex once what sex felt like as a woman. She described as like a really pleasurable feeling of fullness. I dunno, as I said, I can't say I don't very much like the feeling, but the mechanical actions required during sex as a guy... well that's just what they felt like - mechanical actions. Clunky and awkward. Even before I had my moment of clarity as to my gender, I would be there in the middle of the act thinking "this feels wrong... like I'm playing pretend at being a man". The more in-depth I examine this stuff, the more I realise maybe my brain wasn't as good at repressing as I thought and I am, in fact, just completely clueless lmao.
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Post by chloé on Jun 28, 2021 16:19:14 GMT
That’s what my wife described. Fullness and need of being filled and protected. She wants to receive. It’s my problem, I don’t like giving at the end because I don’t like the sensation after and the mechanical dimension of my actions. A sort of little death. Women feelings are more sensation and adaptation and communion with the partner. They feel really what the man gives. I take often the position under and I like it, Chloé appears at this moment. I want to be protected and that someone take care of me and at this moment I feel Chloé. It’s very difficult to hide that to my wife but I do it. She deserves a man and I do the maximum to give it to her even if my mind is female. Hopefully, my body is clearly male, then she doesn’t see Chloé.
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